By Samandra

Talking About Racism as a Brown Person

08 Jun 2020

Let’s talk about racism. As someone who has suffered from racism in the past, I have some things to say. However, you should also know that I don’t think that making white people feel guilty about the color of their skin–something that they haven’t chosen for themselves–is the proper way to fix anything.

So while I communicate about this, I don’t ask you to agree with what I will say, but I would appreciate it if you would try to see the love I feel for all kinds of people, and try to understand how I feel about this matter.

I have suffered a great amount of racism in Brazil– a country in which usually Americans think that everyone has the same skin color as me. However, Brazil is a very diverse country. There are a great number of immigrants from Germany, Italy, Japan, Austria, Korea, Poland, Lebanon, Russia, China, and so many other countries. So basically, the common stereotype doesn’t give justice to how all Brazilians look.

I was born and raised in the state of Santa Catarina, in the south of Brazil. I have ancestors that are German, Indigenous, and Portuguese. My grandma was white and blonde and my grandpa was tan. Because of this mix, some of my uncles and aunts are blonde, and some are tan–all coming from the same parents.

The type of racism I have suffered in Brazil mostly referred to hearing things such as “it had to be black”, “that’s something that black would do”, “that’s a black’s color (referring to when I used red)”, “blacks shouldn’t use pink lipstick”.

These people made me constantly aware of my skin color, and believe that it wasn’t desirable. So, I became a teenager that didn’t like my skin color. Because of that, I avoided being in the sun and going to the beach so I wouldn’t get any darker. I stopped wearing red because I didn’t want to be labeled “black” for wearing it. And every time I put pink lipstick on, I would think that I shouldn’t wear that color, as that would be faking a lip color I didn’t have. I stopped doing these things because I didn’t want to hear more hateful comments.

Then I moved to the USA, a country with a greater amount of whites than in Brazil. To my surprise, these people didn’t seem to care about the color of my skin. I became friends with a great number of white people, went on a good amount of dates with white guys, and in all these 7 years living here, I have never heard any racist comment coming from them. I also noticed white girls getting spray tans and becoming even darker than me. I noticed that my skin color was something they wanted to have.

As I continued to feel that acceptance, that here my skin color was something desirable and that people didn’t seem to care if I was black, brown, or white, I stopped paying attention to it–something that before, I was constantly aware of.

Recently, I went to an Indian store looking for food and I saw those skin whitening creams and it came to my mind that in the past I would certainly have tried it, but today I don’t feel the need to. I love my skin color and I wouldn’t trade it for anything! It’s just perfect for me.

Although, I must admit that there were a few times in which I felt that being brown didn’t help me much. Living in Provo I felt that girls would have their group of girl friends in which they all were white and blonde. I also applied to a job at BYU, and the person chosen for the position when I applied was female-white-blonde, just like all the other ones that have worked in this job before I applied, and just like the ones that came after that.

I also felt racism once when I went to Carrabas with some close friends in Arizona. They both are white and have four cute kids. The waitress asked them how the food was, and she didn’t look or ask me anything. She probably thought I was the nanny, but no, I was just their friend.

Those were the three situations that I felt that my color affected how I got treated here in the USA. Apart from these examples, I can’t think of any other situation where I felt that my color was an issue.

We like to talk about white privilege, but what about brown privilege? I talk about this because it’s where I fit in. I have received scholarships because of my skin color, and I have received other perks because of that. What if instead, we received these benefits because of our socio-economic circumstances? Some black/brown people didn’t need this help, while some impoverished white families have had a greater need than us. Although because their skin color may not be labeled in the category of “in need,” they may be at a disadvantage in these situations.

I just wish that we didn’t need to talk so much about race and color. This shouldn’t matter at all, just like it shouldn’t matter if I decide to wear a yellow or orange shirt. What should matter is what we do with our lives and how we treat others.

In summary, I have suffered racism by white people a couple of times, but the greater amount of them have treated me with respect and love, so how could I forget all the good deeds they have done me and label all whites as racists? I don’t believe in the “one size fits all”, and I don’t believe that all white people are racist. As I said, I have been on a good amount of dates with white guys, I have a lot of white friends, and also a lot of people from church, roommates, people that I work with, etc. which have treated me so nicely, regarding my skin color.

As I say all of this, I won’t make white people feel bad for the color that they were born with. They are not responsible for what their ancestors did, their only obligation is to do something today, and educate their children to treat everyone as an equal human being, and I like that these events lately have been helping them to be more involved in promoting color equality. We can’t do to them what was done to us in the past! We don’t combat racism with racism, but with love, education, and communication.

I am aware though, that this has been an issue throughout centuries, and that we need to fix it. A lot of damage has been done to black people and it needs to stop.

I love that we all are becoming more aware of what people of color deal with for just being themselves. I love that a lot of people are showing empathy and love towards us and that they are educating themselves, and that we the brown/black community are communicating what we deal with and giving everyone a chance to make things better.

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5 Things I Do to Keep Me From Getting Bored

05 Apr 2020

“I’m bored”, said no Samandra ever.

When BYU canceled classes on campus, one of the first things that came to my mind was, “yay, now I will have more time to work on my side projects!” Because I don’t have to commute anymore from SLC to Provo, that added SO MUCH time to my busy schedule, and finally, now I have some free time to do things that have been for a long time on my To-Do list.

  1. Sleeping well: This is one of the things that we students struggle a lot while taking classes. I have been going to bed around 10:30-11 pm, and waking up around 7:30 am, and that has been amazing!
  2. Having my regular routines: Because I’m not rushing through things anymore, I have time to do my skin routine, make myself a good breakfast/lunch/dinner, and study my scriptures better. Working as a mentor for BYU students and taking online classes keeps me pretty busy as well.
  3. Taking care of my body: Exercising isn’t my favorite and easiest thing to do. So now that I have more time I don’t have more excuses to not do it. I do Yoga through the Daily Yoga app, and I love it! I also have been reading a book about TMJ—I have TMJ problems for a good time. I bought a book to learn how to deal with it, and I have never read it until… this week! I also got the Nia Shanks’ workout program, and I plan to start this sometime soon.
  4. Learning something new: I’m an online class junkie! I love learning from people that I admire, and it’s often an affordable way to learn things than through a credited class. I have been taking some online classes from websites such as SkillShare, Masterclasses, and Coursera (they have a lot of Ivy Schools free classes).
  5. Side hustle: I have been putting more time towards bookbinding, and photography. I want to revamp my website, and this is the time for it!

“The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity.” – Dorothy Parker

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How I Overcame Social Anxiety

21 Feb 2020

If you have met me, you know already that I love to talk, but believe or not, about 2 years ago I used to have a lot of social anxiety. If you experience this too, let me give you some suggestions that can help you with that. 😊

  1. What you have to say matter: One of the lies that we tell ourselves when facing social anxiety is that no one will care about what we have to say, so we rather be quiet. I have learned that this is a HUGE lie because what we have to say matters! We are all different (thank goodness), and we have so much to add in a conversation. It doesn’t matter how much you have done, how much money you have, or how attractive you think you are. You are YOU, and this is amazing because each of us can uniquely contribute to this world.
  2. Face it until you make it: This is surely one of the best ways to face any challenge that you may ever encounter. By facing your fears you show who is the boss of it all. YOU are the boss and you won’t let your fears prevent you from becoming who you want to be.
  3. Practice it: I know how challenging it can be to start a conversation with someone you aren’t friends yet. I’m terrible at small talks, and I rather have a deep and long conversation, but not all situations allow us to do that. When I moved to SLC, I was in a very social ward where everyone talked with each other, and that was when I learned how to small talk! Lol. Start by asking the person’s name, where they are from, what they do. If you’re meeting that same person again you may ask how their week was, what were the good and bad things that happened in the past days… You can have a good conversation by just asking these simple questions!
  4. Be present: It’s interesting that one of my biggest fears was that if I was getting the person bored, so I was constantly looking for signs if the person wanted to withdraw from our conversation. When I did this, I couldn’t focus on what the person was saying, and I would be brief with what I was sharing. Silly, uh?! So be present!! Give your best in those short minutes you’re talking with someone, and you will see how it turns better than you had imagined.
  5. How to close a conversation: Sometimes I used to not start a conversation because I didn’t know how to close it and it would worry me of how I would do it. Now I have learned that’s really not that bad as I used to think. When you feel that’s time to go, make a pause, and then you can say something like “It was nice talking to you [say the name of the person]!” You can add other things if you would like such as, “I hope to see you again soon”, “I hope you have a good rest of day.”
  6. Try an anxiety medication: I actually started taking anxiety pills because I was having irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), but surprisingly it helped so much with social anxiety. I don’t credit it all to the medication though, because although I felt less anxious to talk with people after I started with the medication, I still had to work hard to be where I am today. The medication just gives you the courage to face people, and you still have to do everything else.

I know that it’s easier said than done but trust me, I’m the living proof that these things work! I don’t have social anxiety anymore and now I can easily talk to anyone. It feels great to be who I wanted to, and I hope you can find your way as well to free yourself from social anxiety.

Photo by Kelsey Chance on Unsplash

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Green Smoothie Recipe

22 Oct 2019

First thing you may think when someone talks about green smoothies, is “yuckyyy”. But not with my recipes, because I make them all without the “yucky” factor. ;)

The secret for a good green smoothie is to mix a lot of yummy fruits with things that aren’t very tasty such as broccoli, kale, and chard. I usually use a lot of fruits and veggies which I don’t usually like the taste in my smoothies so I can get the vitamins, and adding fruits that you like can mask the flavor of the disliked ones. I love to use green apples, kiwi, pineapple, strawberries, as fruits to bring up good flavor and make it taste good.

Green Smoothie Recipe

  • 1/3 cup broccoli
  • 1/3 cup kiwi
  • 1/3 cup green apples
  • 1/3 cup mixed green leaves (spinach, kale, chard)
  • 1/3 cup pineapple
  • 1 cup of juice (lemonade, apple, cranberry)
  • If you would like, you can add a spoon of flax seed and/or chia seeds.

Blend it all in a high powered blender until smooth.

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Good at Naps

27 Apr 2019

Totally unrelated to the pictures, but I wanted to share with you something that happened to me yesterday…

I got home, cleaned the room, and made plans for the evening. But before that, I thought that I deserved to lay down for a bit just to “rest my eyes.” I bet I’m not the first to tell myself this little lie. Lol.

I woke up in the middle of the night, and reluctantly went to brush my teeth and went back to bed. Funny that if I fall sleep without brushing my teeth I ALWAYS wake up during the night to do it. I guess my body knows I don’t like to be without a brushed teeth. haha

Anyways… I woke up from this 12 hour nap this morning and man, that was good!

I haven’t always been this good at naps. I remember while growing up I was the only one who wouldn’t take the traditional “afternoon naps.” My brain was always in full speed that nothing could make me turn it off during the day, even if I wanted. Then, there was I, trying to entertain myself while all others were napping.

But today I’m not just good at naps, because I’m GREAT at it! Lol. What are good at? haha

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Strawberry, Peach & Lemon Smoothie

16 Mar 2019

Last year I took a Science of Wellness and Nutrition class at BYU, so I could learn more how to take care of my body. Since then I have been doing a lot of new things such as eating more fruits and vegetables.

I have to confess that eating these two wasn’t an easy thing to me. I’m always on the run, with little time to prepare meals, and often the fruits and vegetables that I bought went bad in the fridge. But I wanted it to change. So I made a list of all the excuses that I used to not eat fruits and vegetables.

My excuses in the past:

  • I don’t have time.
  • I’m lazy to eat something extra (apart from what will make me full) along the day__eating isn’t my favorite thing.
  • I feel overwhelmed by all the things I have to do that I don’t want to add something else.
  • I don’t want to go grocery shop every week, and I don’t like to eat fruits when they are too ripe.
  • I can’t eat all those varieties they say in the same day. It’s too much!

After I found out what were my excuses it was easier to me to make a plan to change it. I encourage you to do the same.

My solution:

  • I have always loved fruit smoothies such as the others we found at Jamba Juice. I would make my own “Jamba Juice” yummy smoothies to make me motivated to consume the fruits and veggies I needed.
  • I started to put all the ingredients (but the juice) in a small Ziplock bag and put it in the freezer. Each morning I prepare one of these bags, and have a fresh and healthy drink to start the day!

What I found out:
My fruit smoothies taste WAY BETTER than the ones at Jamba Juice. After awhile taking smoothies daily, there was a day that I didn’t have time to prepare it so I just grabbed one at Jamba Juice thinking that it would be the same, but… I was wrong.

Jamba Juice’s smoothies have sherbet and frozen yogurt added to it which makes it to not taste like fruit, but much more like something sugary that you don’t want. I also couldn’t feel the texture of the fruits, because they probably don’t add much of it.

I’ll be posting more tips that I have learned along the way with other smoothies’ recipe posts. So stay tuned. For now, get the recipe of this yummmyyy fruit smoothies inspired by the Jamba Juice Surf Rider, but way yummier. ;)

Strawberry, Peach & Lemon Smoothie

3 strawberries
1/2 peach
1/2 lemon
1/2 cup of Simply Lemonade juice.

Blend it all and enjoy this simple and delicious fruit smoothie!

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