By Samandra

Good at Naps

27 Apr 2019

Totally unrelated to the pictures, but I wanted to share with you something that happened to me yesterday…

I got home, cleaned the room, and made plans for the evening. But before that, I thought that I deserved to lay down for a bit just to “rest my eyes.” I bet I’m not the first to tell myself this little lie. Lol.

I woke up in the middle of the night, and reluctantly went to brush my teeth and went back to bed. Funny that if I fall sleep without brushing my teeth I ALWAYS wake up during the night to do it. I guess my body knows I don’t like to be without a brushed teeth. haha

Anyways… I woke up from this 12 hour nap this morning and man, that was good!

I haven’t always been this good at naps. I remember while growing up I was the only one who wouldn’t take the traditional “afternoon naps.” My brain was always in full speed that nothing could make me turn it off during the day, even if I wanted. Then, there was I, trying to entertain myself while all others were napping.

But today I’m not just good at naps, because I’m GREAT at it! Lol. What are good at? haha

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2 things you didn’t know about me…

06 Mar 2019

There are two things which I can’t accept about myself in these past 6 years… my age, and that I’m divorced.

Maybe because I didn’t come from a “perfect” family I tried my all to make my life closer to perfect since I was 17. The lack of rules, while I was growing up, made me eager for having something to follow. I also didn’t have a religion while growing up, and I felt the desire to know what God wanted from me. At this age, I met the Church that was just perfect to what I was looking for.

I got married when I was 21. I thought that finally, I would be able to have that perfect family I have always dreamed about. I had two amazing years of marriage, but the last two other were more challenging as people change, and what’s good for me maybe is not any more to the other person. We were from the same faith when we got married, but later he realized that this didn’t bring happiness to him anymore. These beliefs were important to me so we realized that although we were good friends and got along well, sharing a life wasn’t the best thing to us anymore. Even though things ended up friendly, it still hurt me and I closed myself from this. I came to the USA and here I told myself that I wanted to start again, and no one–except my best friends– would know about my past.

I have realized that keeping this as a secret and not telling people my age has to become a burden to me which I don’t want to carry anymore.

I feared rejection for telling the truth. I feared people judging me as a bad person for being divorced. I feared being judged as “complicated”, “she must have a problem” for being 31 and single. After having suffered the ultimate rejection of the divorce, I tried to protect myself from being rejected, again.
 
But the truth is, this is me. All these experiences have helped me to become who I am. If someone wants to be my friend this person will have to accept me for what I am. I have been through hell, yet still turned well.

Why do I do this in social media? I do this so I won’t go back from the decision I have made today to accept who I am, and to not hide these two things from people anymore. I decided in 2016 that I wanted to tell everyone the truth, yet I didn’t stick to my word as I didn’t have the courage.

I love this talk from Sister Stephens from 2016: “They suffer from broken covenants, broken hearts, and lost confidence. These experiences, though no fault of their own, have left many feeling guilty and ashamed. Not understanding how to manage the powerful emotions they experience, many try to bury them, pushing them deeper into themselves. Hope and healing are not found in the dark abyss of secrecy but in the light and love of our Savior, Jesus Christ. Complete healing will come through your faith in Jesus Christ and His power and capacity, through His Atonement, to heal the scars of that which is unjust and undeserved.”

I may have cried all day long because tomorrow is my birthday and I feel like a failure for not being married, having all those four kids, and still be going to school. But these things shouldn’t define me. I still want those things, but things happen at a different time to each of us. Please be kind to others and don’t let your expectations to them make them feel miserable. That’s all.

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10 Things Single People Are Tired of Hearing

14 Feb 2019

It’s Valentines Day’s! For many is a happy day to celebrate with your loved one. But also be considerate about those (like me) who is single and this might not be the happiest day to not have someone… Thinking of that, I put together a list of 10 things I have been tired of hearing, and that everybody should stop telling to single people. Do you relate to this???
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1. “How are you still single? You’re so talented/pretty/righteous….”
2. “You’ll find someone when you least expect it.”
3. “You’re too good for them. They don’t deserve you.”
4. “Don’t worry, I’m sure you will get married soon.”
5. “You’re just too picky.”
6. “You’re too pretty to be single.”
7. “Have you tried online dating?”
8. In reference to my best friend: “You guys get along so well. Why you just don’t married to each other??”
9. “I’m sure your husband will be the most amazing guy ever, and good things take time.”
10. “You should let me set you up, I know someone for you.”

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